4th yr...here I come...

I'm almost there...the finish line is in sight. I have 5 more months of actual school, a few trips to NJ/PA/NYC/Cali and Asia left then an MD will be calling my name. Its been awhile since I commented on my life here but things have been hectic. Between delivering babies and filly my quota on vaginas for life, I am head deep in child psychiatry. After 3 weeks on the psychotic unit with one patient threatening to kill me...child/adolescent psych is much better. Though most are crack/cocaine users and dealers in addition to gang members, I love hanging out, playing ping-pong and getting to know kids so different than myself. It really gives you a new perspective on how lucky so many of us are to have semi-loving, sober parents who provide a home that is safe and free of drugs.

Anyway, on better news, my sister, Taji, just got accepted to law school! So she will finally be cutting her umbilical cord and moving to Durham, NC...just 2 miles down the street from me. Thank God that she will be able to get a job and make some $$$. No more depending on mom for everything. Personaly, I can't wait to make the big bucks to buy all my shoes, clothes and travel the world!

Ok...for pics...what can I post here?? Oh...wedding pics of me in Indian clothes. Now thats a rare sight.This was an all day wedding affair of my friend Lakshmi who married a fellow Indian. What an event...absolutely crazy Indian fun. My friend Sara (standing next to me) wants to have a "brown" wedding. No thanks. Hopefully I can set her up with some brown doctor...any takers? Ok..thats the update for now. Any questions?

1st Place Award goes to....

Now honestly...have you ever seen anything so cute?? I didn't think so

Cherry Blossom Festival 2006

Cherry Blossoms on the PotomacI finally uploaded my pics from the latest Cherry Blossom Festival in DC. My friends and I went up for a quicky road trip and chilled out in Arlington with the local yuppies. Had great Thai food, toured some museums, and fought endless crowds of tourists pushing larger than life baby strollers all over the grass, sidewalks, and streets. I can confirm from upper level government officials that we were the only Americans on the mall during this weekend.

Jefferson Monument

Spring break is a wonderful thing. Who ever envisioned this idea was a genius. Just finished three months of medicine and I'm sold. Looks like its going to be internal medicine followed by cardiology. Not going to front...I love the heart...and I loves the $$$

BODY WORLDS.....

I just got back from Philly were I saw this exhibit...BODY WORLDS: The Anatomical Exhibition of Real Human Bodies. AMAZING...BEAUTIFUL...A MUST SEE!!! Honestly, this blew my mind. This German anatomist uses a process of replacing human fluids with polymers of different densities of plastic to preserve human bodies with out decay. The bodies are then positioned into amazing poses and dissected to reveal the smallest details that you can't see in a regular cadaver. I was mesmorized at the details of the nerves, blood vessels, internal chambers, and organ specimens. And it was nice to know in detail what I was looking at. If you get a chance to see this...please...please...please go. It is worth the money ($25) and crowds. The IMAX film is not worth it at all..very basic. WOW...the exhibit really captures the astounding beauty of the human body and shape, the complexity of the organs, and how it all works together. Many children were pointing out the smoker's lungs in several of the bodies...how educational. You get to really see what your lungs and liver will look like after years of smoking and drinking...how cancer spreads through the body. One of my favorite pieces is this....the 7-8 months pregnant woman. You can really appreciate how her internal organs are compressed and how the baby lays directly on top of her bladder. I wish there was some description of how she died...but who ever donated her body has provided an invaluable learning tool. I heard so many men expressing their utter surprise at how much room a baby takes up and the ordeal a mother endures till birth. What is most mind blowing is the way the tissues are preserved. Thinking back to my cadaver and anatomy lab...we spent hours trying to identify mush that is clearly seen with plastination! The chess player displayed an amazing dissection of the spinal cord and exiting dorsal roots. You can really appreciate the sacral plexus and siatic nerve. Honestly, I am begging whoever reads this blog to go see this exhibit. It will give you a new appreciation for your body and maybe convince you to stop smoking/drinking or to donate your body!!!

On another note, my hospice patient just passed away about 3 hours ago. I recieved a call from her daughter-in-law and fortunately I was in the hospital so I ran up there just to see her. She was the first dead body I have ever been around....and she was warm to the touch! I helped remove her clothing and IV and prepped her for the funeral home! I became so close to this patient and family that I actually started to cry. Not because I was mourning her death but the relationship of seeing her and her family each morning and learning from the care they all showed her. Actually, I am so happy she will no longer suffer and I hope she went without suffering. I pray that she is at peace. Medicine is probably the only field in which you are privy to birth and death at such an intimate and superficial level. I am so thankful that each day I get to participate in what I think is the greatest profession and calling. And learning from patients and their families is such a special gift that its hard to describe in words.

Poor me....

I'm sick and have no one to take care of me....boo-hoo-hoo! And I was on call sat...waa-waa. Ok-I was going to write about this cute Israeli boy I met the other day and went to dinner with but I'm too tired now. Mom cooked dosa's...Dan the Man came over and Kelly Corr was here so we all ate and ate and ate till we could not eat anymore. Now I need a nap and some sex. Ha...any takers.

Gotta Luv this Shirt

Ahhhh....YES...this is the infamous shirt of a certain someone who will remain nameless. The one shirt which brings countless men to stare at my chest with curiosity at the written word OR it could be a good excuse to just stare at my boobs. Either way, this is one of my favorite shirts even though the former owner bestowed pit stains so hard to remove that I have given up trying. I am displaying this pic as a birthday present to said person to ensure he knows that his former shirt is alive, well cared for, and never returning to said former owner. Who knows how the hell I got this shirt but dammit...I'm not letting it out of my sight.

SIF seeks MEN...for...for...for....etc

Yes...thats right...single indian female seeks a man. Whats funny about that?? I'm going to be 28 in a month (urrrggghhh) and with no prospects on the horizen and with recent former flames now cut out of my life for being total losers...I am asking the question...WHERE THE FUCK ARE ALL THE GOOD MEN????????

Not only good men but a guy who wants someone (ie: ME) who actually has a brain on top of being hot...who has a future, who is going to be a sugar-mama, who is funny and fun to be around? Yeah...yeah...yeah...I could go on and on about what a catch I am but anyone reading this blog already knows that so whats the point other than blowing my own horn. Today Laurie sent me this email...again to rationalize why she and I are still single. Oh-she is a pharmacist making major $$$$, white, hot, and one of the sweetest people I know.

Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree

This question is the center of most conversations I have with my girlfriends...why are we still single?? Who knows. Honestly, this question perplexes the SHIT out of me. I have no idea why I don't have a boyfriend. I'm not saying I'm ready to be married....god knows I'm not ready for that but a serious boyfriend who doesn't stand me up or doesn't say more than "uh-huh" would be nice. Now why am I finally bringing this sore topic up?? Cause today I had enough of cute drug reps and patients hitting on me with nothing coming of it. Ok-ethically...I would never date a patient but I've been known to have some fun with the reps. So again...why am I single? Look at all of those hot Navy men...yum-yum-yum...I would love to be on that boat.

So here is a sampling of 15 strapping (haa-haa) young men sent to me by one of my closest male (and married) friends. I guess he was trying to cheer me up during one of my "people get married to young....there are no men for me....I love white guys" tirades. Ok-so this pic makes me laugh for several reason...some of these men look like ex-boyfriends and future boyfriends I would like to spank. But really...I am sure they are all married to sub-par women...ie: apples on the bottom of the tree type women....ie: a sure thing. What the FUCK is up with that. Can't men work alittle harder to get and keep the one girl they truely want to be with. Take Matt for example. My super cute Mr. UPS man who can't remember a date but claims to be totally in love with me. Hummmm...you think someone like that would work his ass off to be with me given that I love him. But NOOOOOOOO. Again, blows my mind. Why is a sure thing such a great deal? Wouldn't you rather work for something amazing? Why are all these young, trashy, uneducated girls married? And I'm single? My friend Adia says "being cute is a curse" and I agree. Maybe its that I am not approachable. Maybe I come across as being cocky and egotistical? Regardless...there has to be one guy who has the FUCKING balls to follow through?
And these comments are not mine alone...they are repeated by all of my close friends who are perplexed just like me. And boys...I am not talking about average women....I'm talking of super hotties who have a career and still want it all (ie: family, friends, money, career, sex...sex...sex)!!

Ok-that was chapter one of this issue. If YOU have insights on why my friends and I are single...please fill me in. And if you are a willing single man who wants more than a one night stand (although I am willing to consider this for the right hottie) then let me know. Ok-you can't have a girlfriend on the side who is oblivious to your exploits or a fiance or a wife. Single means single!!

Where's the Kitty??

So to those who wonder if BROWN people celebrate Christmas....WE DO!! Well, some of us do (ie: my family). I'm chilling at home, maxing and relaxing (haa-haa) enjoying doing nothing much other than eating and hanging out with our family friends. I must admit I'm getting alittle bored with all of this free time. I wish I could take the next week and sandwich it between 3 months of medicine when I am going crazy and hating everyone and everything. Oh-did you find the kitty in the pic? Thats the baby of the family...the most spoiled cat you have ever met. The bottom pic is the "baby's" mama. My mom rescued her from a life on the streets and she repaid us by having 3 babies. We kept the runt of the litter (see pic above). Mama cat is my favorite and is the smartest cat I have ever met!

Some of MY Pics....and yes...I took all of them

Liffey River. Dublin, Ireland

Ios. Santorini, Greece

Parthanon. Athens, Greece

The Louvre. Paris, France

Q-tips

I know you have all been warned to never stick a Q-tip in your ear...but we all just can't resist that damn good feeling after a shower! There is nothing like it...well...I take that back...but Q-tipping a wet ear is high up on the list of pleasurable moments.

Speaking of which, I am on an ENT (ear, nose and throat) rotation and today I helped remove the cotton end of a Q-tip from a patient's ear who came to the Emergency Room. 2 seconds later...she was on her way, a warning in hand to never, ever use another Q-tip. Oh well...at least the resident meant well but we all know tomorrow morning she will be engaging in that cotton pleasure as will I.

Well...I have 4 more days of surgery in front of me. My plastics rotation ended with a bang. I saw the skull of an 8mo child removed and reformed. The kid had craniosynostosis (premature closure of cranial sutures) and had a head shaped just like the Cone Heads (80's movie). It was an amazing case...the brain was right there and on a back table, the plastic surgeon was cutting/hammering away at the skull. CRAZY!!! ENT has been great...the residents and attendings are super nice. There are 3 LSU residents in the UNC program now who lost everything during Katrina. The are probably the best out of all ENT residents. Overall, the last 2 weeks have been great...rounding at 7am and leaving between 5-6pm. I can't wait for friday when I take my final exam.

Ahhhhh...then 2 weeks of vacation...sleeping...and more sleeping.

Most important part of any physical exam....

the RECTAL....as one surg onc attending pointed out while scolding Greg (other med stud on surg onc with me).

Don't forget...we get paged when no rectal was done on admission! Y'll are just waiting to show up at your local ER to be greeted by a medical student with one gloved hand and some lub!

Couldn't resist!!

Classic all-purpose BUSH face...seen during UN negotiations, meeting world leaders, G-8 summits and while being felt up by the presidential turkey

Count down....

WOOO-HOOOO...I officially completed 1 month of surgery! Friday was my last day of surgical oncology and I have to admit...surgery is back at the top of the list. Yes I complained profusely to anyone in ear shot but I realized that if retraction and putting in simple sub-curticular sutures makes me excited then maybe this might work out after all. You know you are mentally disturbed after waiting 8+ hrs during a case to put in stitches. I was in on a Whipple procedure where they take out the head of the pancreas, part of the duodenum, gall bladder and then put all the left overs together. It took 7hrs and all I could look forward to was cutting, holding up the large intestine and finally putting in the final sutures. Nevermind the trace pitting edema in my legs, the serious back cramps, and that my contacts were nearly glued to my eyes...it was exhilarating! I left dead tired but totally pumped up. I'm hoping plastic surgery, which starts tomorrow, goes as well as surg onc ended! And T-day is only 3 days away...plus I get a 4 day vacation starting wed at 5pm and can finally go home to mom and the kitties. Damn the person who tries to make me stay past 5...God be with them cause I am going to throw a major f--king fit if I have to stay till 8pm.

Tired???

TIRED?? SLEEPING?? YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!! I just can't get enough sleep and when I try to sleep in...my body wakes up at 5am naturally. How much does that suck when all you want is to sleep and sleep and sleep but your damn biological ticker wakes you up at 5am. Well at least its not 4am which is when I need to wake up with the help of my alarm. So I am in serious need of quality rest which I hope to get over Thanksgiving break...I have a whole 4 days off. And I will be spending that whole time with mom and the cats...sleeping! So my mom got a cat door but she has yet to get the cats to use it. Needless to say I am looking forward to some Pavlov training over T-day!

Well this has been an eventful weekend full of the past coming and biting me in the ass. Quite the emotional rollercoster but I have been grounded thanks to Steve G who always puts men in perspective! I had tons of work...none of which I really finished to completion. I did get my laundry done and ironed my new white coat and got some groceries...but thats it! I should have studied!! I haven't really had a chance...well..thats not the truth. I've been hanging out with my special someone and putting everything else on hold! Oh no...I can just see myself cramming at the last minute for the major exam I have...just like I did for my pediatric shelf exam. Oh, but I aced that test so maybe I should make this my strategy! I know my mom will freak out if she knew this is how I was spending my time.

Well after shopping successfully today for pants I feel rejuvenated for the week ahead. Its a wonder what some shopping can do for the soul. Now all I need is some quality vacation. Any suggestions on short road trips?? I wanna get out of NC for a moment. Maybe I can convince someone to go away with me....

Oh yeah...I don't think I want to do surgery anymore. My bubble burst last monday when I spent 10+ hrs in surgery and nearly lost all blood supply to my feet. Tuesday was no better and I actually had it out with an intern who thought she was God. The rest of the week was much better but I realized that wearing green scrubs all day, never seeing the light of day, waking up at unmentionable hours, and never getting home before 7pm was NOT the life I wanted to live. I am all for working hard but this life style is beyond that. I definitly could live the life of a private surgeon...ie: plastics...but I may not physically or emotionally survive the residency/fellowship training. The short 1-2hr cases interest me...but someone help me if I have to spend more than 3hrs in any one case. My feet become black and blue and that dependent/pitting edema gets out of control! Plus I lose total interest in whats going on. The other day I almost fell off the stool I was standing on because I closed my eyes and leaned back. Good thing I grabbed the table and the patient's leg...it would have been lights out for me! Can I really survive 5 more weeks of this?? Will there be something I like?? Hmmm...I thought I had it all figured out...perfect blend of technical and patient contact (ie: not too much patient)....back to square one....

Fall in NC

This is a pic of the Duke Gardens. Yes...I crossed over to the enemy's side but how can you resist the fall colors. Well, week #2 of surgery is over and I am looking forward to a 4am wake up call tomorrow morning. Its been a rough few days starting with call thurs night and being up for 30+ hrs. I scrubbed into a laproscopic appendectomy (lap appy) at 4am friday morning and fell asleep on the patient's legs from complete boredom and lack of sleep. The scrub tech kindly pushed me awake and I returned her gesture with a quick although hidden flick of the bird! I love how the nurses in the OR treat us like dirt....I guess we are the only people who they can boss around and treat like crap. Don't they realize that in a short few years...we all will be in a different position so why be mean to us now! It only makes us pissed off and rude to them later! I'm thinking I won't be jaded by the less than nice treatment I've endured...and honestly the majority of OR staff is nice...its just those few that really ruin it. And at 4 in the morning...why be an asshole??

Well friday was no better...a favorite patient passed away..he was the first patient of mine to die. It was more difficult than anticipated but one small tear later (y'll know I don't cry), exhaustion sunk in and I hit the bed. And to top things off...what more can a girl want than to be on call sat and sun morning??? Good question...how about a car wreck sat afternoon!! After rounding in the hosptial I was in Greensboro to visit a special someone when a 18yo college freshman decided to throw her truck in reverse and smash into my front end. My car (Mr. Benz) is holed up in Gboro and I am driving a rental AMERICAN car...the Chevy Cobalt! So sat was spent calling the insurance company, finding a rental car, and being stressed out with the logistics of me working 13+ hr days and having to deal with getting my car fixed in a city that is 1hr away from Chapel Hill. One bright spot was Carolina's win over Boston College. Poor VTech...they had an ugly loss to Miami. Wait...I can't belive I just included VTech in my blog. That is a major shout out to my special someone who came through big time sat during my car crisis! Hopefully the Steelers will win tonight!!

That concludes another stress ridden, NO sleep, high intensity weekend. Things happen for a reason...at least that is what I think...so if y'll have any insight as to why my weekend ended up this way...email me ASAP. And if you want to take my place tomorrow at 4am...page me and I can fill you in. Hey...you might get to see some really cool stuff!!

TIME???

Its been forever since I added anything to this blog! Based on the Final Four pics...I guess I lost track of the time and more importantly...nothing interesting has happened in my life! Well, thats not really all true! I finally ended things with Mr. UPS guy (several months ago) and took a sabbatical from men. I moved home with mom...YES...can you believe it...took the USMLE Step 1 (and passed...whew!!). I started my 3rd year...and now I'm on my SURGERY rotation! Life is awesome...I've found what I want to do!! Thats right...I want to cut open people and remove things and maybe sometimes put things together. What about being a plastic surgeon...I could do boobs all day! I have 1.5 months to go before I get a break from waking up at 4am and getting to the OR at 5am! At least there are lots of HOT men in green scrubs to keep me happy, entertained and well flirted with. Ahhh...y'all know how much I love a man in scrubs...and I'm not talking about the cleaning crew who also wear green and flirt almost as much as the docs! This cartoon really captures how I feel on a daily basis...LOST!! No one tells you anything but expects you to know what the 500+ different tools are and to read their minds when they make finger motions to you. I learned the scissors hand signal...so I'm way ahead of the curve! Haa...some surgeons have the biggest egos...and its hard to fit them all in one room! Hmmm..this surgery thing might actually be a good fit!??

Ahhhh....James....

This is one of my favorite pics ever. It really captures why I love James so much...totally ruining a perfect pic of Jin and myself...but then he really makes the picture! I definitely miss my chinese boy-toy....

Clayne's Wedding!!

What a blast! Doesn't Clayne (the bride and one of my closest friends) look amazing! It was so much fun watching my dear friend marry Steve...who by the way is the perfect fit to Clayne. So how HOT is that really tan girl on the left??

Sunday April 3-Press Conf. (May & McCants)

Survival-of-the-fittest national championship game

Could this be...Basketball Darwinism???

"It should be something special Monday night. In the end, I give the slightest of edges to the Tar Heels. I picked them at the end of last year's Final Four and I am staying with them." (Dick Vitale)

"It's the first time in 30 years that the two top-ranked teams have played in the final, since No. 1 UCLA sent John Wooden into retirement with one last trophy after beating No. 2 Kentucky. The Illini, toughest team in America, takes on the Tar Heels, the most talented team in America." (Pat Forde, ESPN.com)

How could anyone disagree that the Tar Heels have an advantage over the Illini. Just read any sports commentary....the majority have their caps tipped in favor of the Heels! And why not?? After a blazing 2nd half, UNC beat MSU and Chapel Hill went wild. We are cheering our guys on in Carolina Blue tomorrow night...my place...for a crazy ass party and journey to Franklin Street (if need be). No class for me Tuesday morning...GO HEELS!!!!!!!!!!!!

UNC vs. MSU (Felton & May)

#42 Sean May...14pts...10 rebounds..

UNC vs. Villanova....gotta luv those TarHeels

Close Call...now for the Elite 8!!

Wow, what a game tonight! UNC took us all for a crazy ride but finally pulled it out with a 1 pt win over Villanova. Gotta give it up for Villa...they played tough and to the end but hey, UNC is #1 so things are still all good in the Syracuse region. Oh-can't forget to thank Michigan St. for knocking DUKE off. What a great way to start a 3-day weekend.

aaaahhhhh....James!

Only Shanna, Matt, James, and myself truely know what happened in this pic. We welcome your interpretations...but I am sure you will never guess! Think bad, bad thoughts....that might help!

yummy...

What tha...??????

what's a FOB...don't know? Check out the link

check out the "Drop it like a Fob" in the link section...its a must see for all those familiar with the term.."FOB". When you go to the FuDaBushi site, click on the "drop it like a fob" black square. You have to have real player to watch it, download it...so worth it!

This link is from Jenna in NJ! I laughed my ass off when I saw it...you gotta love Indians and their creativity turning rap into Bollywood creations! Well, I'm heading to Asheville to start community week early...thats where I follow around a real doc for a week! Can't wait to finish...this is my last week of shadowing for life! Still doing nothing except going to bed around 3am, waking up at 1pm, watching TV and taking naps in between. Its weird how sleep deprived I've become. I keep having crazy, vivid dreams every night and even during naps...that I am not sure what is reality. I have to think for a moment to make sure that I really didn't do or say whatever happened in my dreams! Crazy...oh well, not going to deter me from sleeping even more!

Oh-I'm posting a few pics from my 27th bday party...have to keep this PG-13 so can't share the intimate moment between Nate P, James L and a can of "rimming sugar"!

throw back to the 80's....

ahhh...peace at last...

...and technology seizes control

I never thought of all people that I would have a blog! Wow...I have finally embraced new technology thanks to Google, who rock!! Now I can finally update all my family and friends with out spending hours on the phone. Just kidding, love talking to everyone but it puts a serious dent in my studies! I'm on spring break and doing basically nothing except for sleeping, eating, and watching Sienfield re-runs. Does life get any better??